Monday, June 28, 2010

Everything seems so tall and high up

I think I'm lost. Have you ever have the feeling where you have no motivation or will to do everything? Yes, every single thing. Much to my disgust, I just feel like letting go of everything. FYP, studies, dance, life; Zero, to a point that I feel like dropping out from school. I've been missing from dance lessons for at least a month, skipping few classes ever since school started. A lot of times I know things are urgent and I need to get it done asap, but for the next moment I am very reluctant to do it even though it's going to cause me a bomb or hell lots of troubles. I wonder what has gotten into me. I hate my brain. It always has the power to lure me to the dark side when I'm doing fine, to a point that I think I'm a sadist. Whenever I'm stable and doing fine, I will start to have pessimistic mindset and it drives me crazy. I can't help it because to me, everything is too good to be true. It is either momentary only, or gotta be some motives behind for being this way. Tell me what to do. I think I have problem with myself right now. Internal conflict? Ha. Sucks to be me. How I wish time can fly back past few months where I was very optimistic, motivated and eager to do what I'm doing right now. Guess life does have its ups and downs. I need to see something/situation that is worse than what I THINK I am in right now, then I'll appreciate what I'm going through currently. Tell me how to pull myself together. :( No you can't pretend that the airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars because they are really airplanes. Face the fact.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Just like an ocean..

I'll start to tweet once I get my Iphone! :D I think. HAHA! This is gonna be a short post because I don't wanna write more, else I'll be start complaining, as usual. TATA!

Monday, June 14, 2010


After a month and I'm back here, that's so early! My laziness rocks all the time! I realized that I only blog during lesson. This proves how boring lesson is and can never focus anymore. There will be a few overdue photos below thanks to my laziness! Holidays were not bad; work, slack and enjoyed with love! Btw, cheese is the love right now! :D
Momentum 2010
Flowers from <3! When we're bored... Dom's bday!