Thursday, August 27, 2009

All I need is determination + confidence + luck!

During the exams period, I had so much to say but I couldn't due to exams and busy days, so I promised myself to blog after exams. Now that my exams are over, and I forgot what I wanted to say already. This happens all the time I swear. Well, I joined back modern dance again! =D Lessons are as usual, every Monday and Thursday. Bruises and floor burns became a part of me ever since I joined back. Seriously, my techniques suck now, deteriorated and my flexibility sucks too! There are a lot of things to catch up again and I nearly forget all the ballet french terms as well. I had serious muscles ache from top to bottom of my body and totally couldn't move after the first day of lesson. I feel like a retired old woman who's trying to dance again. Although it's stressful but I somehow enjoy it. Guess I really need to work hard now. =D Determination and confidence, come to mama please ! Second highlight of the post: Finished exams already and this means that it's the end of the 2nd Year first semester! Time flies damn fast boy. Oh, I'm having holiday now! =DD Sounds good huh, BUT! I don't think I did well in my exams. They seem easy but when you really do it, you got stucked and feel like your information are all over the place and the worst thing is, you can't remember where you'd put your information in your brain! That annoys me a lot. =\ Oh well, all I need for this is LUCK now! I want As and high GPA! Well, more stresses are coming up. Holidays mean have to start doing PP which I have no idea how to start right now. =S The deadline is on October! Besides that, I have to choreo a Chinese dance for an upcoming event on December too; have to think about the costumes, how to get and where to get, practice time and dancers as well. And, modern dance too. =\ Busy! Sigh. Everything always happen at the same time. LOL! --------------- I seriously hate doing air tickets thing. It's freaking troublesome! Okay, that's one of the disadvantages of studying in overseas. Flying back and forth during vacations and CNY, thinking which flight and date to take and fly, how to book or buy and so, everything has to be planned properly. Else, you will be facing a lot problems like fully booked or way too expensive. This makes me stressed too! Well, i've bought this September's ticket back to Brunei, so it's not for me to worry about this right now (except for the going back alone part =S). Now the thing is, I need to book my CNY flight back to Brunei in 2010 already! Can you imagine what is the date today? Still have half a year to CNY 2010 and yet most of the flights are kinda fully booked, or very expensive. Well, I'm not the only kiasu one right now huh. =p Okay, I shall rant no more! It's never enough for me to complain everything. I should learn HOW to appreciate and take it easy instead. =)
OH OH! LOOK AT THE DATE TODAY! IT'S 27th AUGUST! LOL! Okay, happy one year anniversary to me! =D wee~
Had steamboat at Dom's and the family as well. BLOATED!
Done by his dad. freaking hilarious! LOL! Guess what are those ingredients? Syabu Syabu(beef) as the hair, panda fish as the face, fishball filled with meat as the body and Enoki mushroom as arms and legs! "Happy anniversary!" That's what the dad said. =D
Life still goes on, so be optimistic people!

Thursday, August 13, 2009


Life is a paradox, regardless anything. Human beings know what is right and what is wrong and they know they should be good. They tell others to do right things and be good to others, and yet they can contradict themselves by doing oppositely. Funny huh? There are different kind of people exist in this world; kind, helpful, arrogant, fake, weird, cunning, bitchy, busybody, useless, and yada yada yada. Sometimes they disgusted me, a lot. BUT, who am I to judge them right? I have no rights at all, agree? Well, WE have no rights to judge people at all, unless you're asked to be a judge of something else. That's different case then. Sometimes, I find it very annoying when people keep pointing here and there and say: "EEee.. look at that person's face, damn ugly eh! Seriously BUANG!" "Oh my gosh, look at that girl/guy's attire! seriously got no sense of fashion man!" "Eww, why is that person's face so weird? Like kena banged by car." "Look at that couple, not match at all ler~" Hello people ~ Before you talk about them, look at yourself first. Are you perfect enough to say others? People never hire you as a judge or what, so many comments for what? DUH ~ as if you have nothing else to do. And, I really hate those busybody people, keep harping and irritates on the same freaking thing forever and ever, as if you all haven't grown up yet. It goes like this : "Eee, you like that girl/guy ah? Eh seh, I don't wanna be a light bulb la, go go go, walk beside him/her then! don't forget to hold hand ah!" "OMG! I saw him and her walking together just now man! They've got something on for sure! Wanna bet or not?" Then run like an idiot and spread around to their friends, as if they will gain credits from it. Come on la, it's so primary and secondary school thing that we used to do it eh, how old are you now? Still wanna bring the habit to poly or uni life? Other than being an entertainment for you all, I find it rather backstabbing your friends. Be it me myself or my friends, i defend both. I just cannot tolerate this kind of shit. Tsk. Screw your mouth off man, perhaps, your backside. =p One sentence, you are damn lifeless, poor you. =) GROW UP, PEOPLE! They keep quiet doesn't mean they are okay with it and no comments at all. Mind you. Don't wait till people backfire you, we will then have fun as well. What goes around comes around~ Use your freaking brain and put yourself in others' shoes. If you have nothing to do or talk about, just shut your hyperactive mouth, keep quiet and mind your own shit, alright? You're not treated as a mute. =) And please don't talk cock when your balls are not that big. No one will look down on you even though you're not or what. Just be real and be yourself. Faking your identity doesn't do any good to you, and to us as well. In fact, you will get opposite results though. We know what's behind you, so please. The more you boast, the more I'll dig out the truth and embarrass you till you're faceless! 0=) I can be very mean at times, erm, i think most of the time. LOL! So don't try me. Thank you. ps: If you think above mentioned are somewhat similar to your behaviours, please change then. Will be greatly appreciated. :) I don't mind helping you to change yourself as well too. Feel free to contact me if you need to. HAHA ! >=)

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

HELLO WORLD! =) It has been a long time that I blogged. How are you people? Life's as usual huh, ups and downs. I think people now are more into the HAZE thing. Every time I log into facebook, sure got a lot of people complaining the weather's hot and hazy. Yes, I'm talking about you, Brunei. Poor you all. For a moment I was glad that I wasn't in Brunei, because I cannot stand hazy and super hot weather. It irritates my nose hell lots. However, Singapore is a bit hazy nowadays as well, guess it's some Indonesia thing going on. And I think some parts of Malaysia are suffering from haze too. Oh well ~ There are a lot of things going on in my mind and sometimes they are really driving me crazy! I'm just too indecisive towards everything. Now I suspect that I'm having split personality. O.O Sometimes I don't think what I usually think, and sometimes I do what I usually don't think or do. Fickle brain, paranoid, complicated and whatsoever la. Okay, I suck at describing and I don't know what I'm talking about now. I'll leave it till next time where I can actually write it in words properly. I was sick last week; mild fever, sore throat and flu. My normal body temperature is usually from 35.4 - 36.2. However during that period, it rose up to 36.9 - 37.4 day after day. To me, it's consider hot already and I thought 37 degree celcius is normal for a body temperature. I'm cold-blooded. LOL. Guess what? I didn't visit doctor at all! Self-recovery. No medicines were taken as well. I think my stubborn-head can kill me sometimes, if it really happens to be H1N1. =S Sometimes, I really don't know what is good for me and what is best for others. Being considerate can actually hinders you in making decision too. I hate myself for being so considerate. It makes me paranoid and indecisive. For instance, given A and B, you're thinking of doing A which will benefits you. But then if you choose A, it will affects another person and you start to feel guilty; And if you choose B, it doesn't do any good to you but it benefits another person and you start to feel regret. Therefore, you will then start to think whether which one to choose, to benefit yourself or others? I seriously cannot make up my mind in this kind of situation and I feel so useless. Exams are coming in one week time and after that holidays! Wait, I haven't revise any of the modules yet. I feel so unproductive. I think I've jeopardized my priorities already. It's like, you're trying to study, but then there is actually other stuff that you wanted and can't wait to do first other than studying. Agree? Three words : Humans are VERY complicated ! I know, I know no one else can help me other than myself. Whatever decisions that I'm going to make, thus I have to bear whatever consequences that are going to happen as well. Oh well, hopefully life will continue go on smoothly lor ~ Obstacles shooo shoooo !