Birthday Eve

It's sweet that relatives and family celebrated with me. Not really a celebration though just cutting a cake and that's it. Nothing much special. As usual, dinner with six to eight dishes at aunt's. Being an organizer could be suckish at times too because you're the one who always arrange and initiate everything, obviously. Well i'm the one who always arranges and brings out cakes and plates whenever there's cake cutting ceremony. I totally don't mind abt that at all. I enjoy decorating the candles and so. But the suck part is that, it happens even when it's my birthday as well! Hello. No one automatically do it for me and in addition everyone's like rushing me to bring out the cake and do the preparation. Not to mention the name, i was even asked to cut a piece of cake out first because my lil cousin is hungry and i haven't even light up the candles yet! But i didn't. HA ! Great. That's one of the reasons of why i do not want to celebrate my birthday in the very beginning. I'd rather not to have it at all if i know this would happen. Oh well, call me a grumpy person or whatever. That's me. Apart from that, i really appreciate mom's effort in buying a costly cake and do all the cleanup for me. Thanks mom. Nothing can beats mummy, right? :) Shall rant no more else i'll be as good as those naggy people. Bla. Happy 19th, Sue. And i mean HAPPY. :-)

HOME

Nothing changes and almost everything remains the same. Guess I'm the one who's not used to it. Be it the people here, environment and so on. I adapt real fast huh. I feel different in two different places. Everything is okay so far except for the internet (you know), and guess where am I now? Coffee Bean. LOL! Was kinda busy renewing passport and re-entry permit these few days and they are done! Went to Limbang day ago and I wonder how the residents there could actually survive in that kind of environment. Everything is so backdated and they call that tall building their shopping centre? I'm so thankful that I at least grown up in Brunei. Not to be sarcastic or proud but I believe most of you would agree with me on this. The weather is so hot that I feel like a roasted duck whenever I'm outside. I perspire everytime I'm done with bathing too. Air-cond is my best friend now! My pace is very slow right now. I feel relax and stress-free when I try not to think of anything. However, when I think about of going back to Sg, responsibilities and tasks bombarded and they stressed me out! Cuz I'm still in square 1. So far nothing much have been done since it's only the first few days in Brunei and I think I'm gonna be dead meat when I go back to SG. Oh there will be 3 days dance camp on 28th where I'll only be touching down in Sg on the 27th! Not to forget, i'm missing 3 dance lessons during the vacation as well. Well done Susan. Apart from that, i have no idea on the other event(dance) that I'm doing right now. Totally clueless empty and somehow I feel like dropping it. For that I'll be killed as well. Someone please save me!

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Am going back to Brunei tomorrow. :) Hopefully this trip will be fun and full of colours, though it's short for 2 weeks only. I think I'm having mixed feelings right now. I'm excited and at the same time, feeling sad too. Guess I'm emotional nowadays and not used to it so far. Having to fly off tomorrow thought he would be able to send me off, but never knew that he went to Phillipines 2 days before me. End up I was the one who sent him off at the airport. I couldn't help but tear glands were very active at that point of time. I burst out in front of people and they told me not to be sad and cry. Guess what? That made me, and the situation even worst. I am always told by everyone that I'm a strong, mature and independent person. Well to me it's up to a certain extent depending on situations. Apparently, I'm weak inside, really am. For this especially. Guess that is why at times I tend to hide my weakness with those personality for defense purpose. Well, asked to look at the brighter side, perhaps we could make use of this chance to give us a break and will be fresh once we meet up again. :) For this I'm motivated. And I'm pretty sure that what we've gone through so far are worth doing. *Took a deep breathe*

Hazel Lee. Begging me for 'Ba Gua' with that innocent eyes. How adorable.

Stared at me for not giving her the food. Can you read her face expression? Su-parr cute! Now this little Lee makes me miss that Mr Lee frigging much!

Made this so called scrapbook with at least 50 pages for him during CNY 2009. Time does fly like a jet isn't?

Anticipating...