Chinese watery new year

First of all, HAPPY CHINESE MOO YEAR! However, it was a very watery new year though. Rained heavily again, and flood too! We are now stuck at cousins' house and couldn't go back. Therefore, we got no choice but to stay over. *sigh~ what a year..*

Fortunately, the rain stopped when it was almost 12am. phew~ All of us thought we're gonna miss the firework session because of that. One of the long crackers stopped half way because accidentally soaked in water. -____- wasted.

Neighbours did not lose out during the firework session too! =D

like somekind of explosion. Was kinda deaf for half an hour. =S

After that, we went to the road out there.. or should I say, river-like road? It looked like this after hours of downpours.

We, the kepo people, were kinda excited for no reason. walked around on the road which filled with dirty water (mixture of mud, shit, drain water and watever u can think of =p)

and it stinks i tell you!

Does it look like a river to you?

drain & road = same! can't even differentiate anymore.

okay, ignore my fat thighs, the water literally covered up my ankles and almost reached my knees! Gee.. what a year huh.

fantasy

Few more hours to Chinese New Year.. Relatives and family are preparing for reunion dinner.. There will be fireworks when the clock strikes 12am, as usual. Wishes will be floating around in air too. Most of all, RED PACKETS! =D Well, for some reasons, this new year doesn't seem special to me though. Reunion? I doubt so. Feel complicated now.. My mind and heart are fighting against each other.. Sometimes, i always question myself : why do I have to suffer from this? why me? It makes no different whether I'm having you or not. exist = not exist at all Guess that's my luck.. When i was small, I thought you were my superman, just like others have theirs, rescue us whenever we have problems, accompany us when we're alone, support us when we need you.. However.. it doesn't seem to happen like what i wish for. Even if it is just a tiny simple thing, you disappointed us, everytime.. Now, I don't wish to have anything from you anymore, just hope you won't worsen it. That's all. Anyway, since I'm here already, just forget about it and treat it as invisible. What to do, just tolerate some more lo, since I've tolerated it for years, or probably a decade already? Time just passed subconsciously.. Somehow, guess I should be thankful and appreciate what I'm having right now, as it taught me how to live life meaningfully, look things in a different way and not to take things for granted. Furthermore, became a stronger person too! And I swear I won't follow the same path as they are having right now, instead, I will try to make it even better no matter what! cross my heart and hope to die! Slowly, step by step and walking towards my dream life.. --------------------

ANYWAY, not to spoil my CNY mood, I'm here to wish everyone

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! may all of you have a great year ahead and enjoy! =D

Oh well, everyone's talking about Brunei's weather. sigh~ Yes, it's very very terrible! Can say almost whole Brunei black out ba.. (over exaggerate though) ESPECIALLY MY HOUSE TOO! No electricity, no current. Super inconvenient eh! When I was on my way home to Brunei on Monday, it started to rain heavily. Is this a way of welcoming me? hmm.. Then the next day, rained heavily again. I was stucked in Gadong for 2 hours plus till midnite, just to wait for the water level decrease. Gadong area flooded, even Kiulap, Beribi and more too! what a bad weather Brunei has! I just came back and everything was like, WHOA~ Flash flood, phone line down, no current.. suffering! Hope it's not because of me. HAHAHA! =p anyway, I wont online that frequent as before. Internet speed slow, current sot sot also. sigh~ sounds like I'm at somekind of backdated place.. what to do.. well, till here. =) will blog again soon. =) tata~ I MISS YOU!

in Brunei!

Yes, I'm in Brunei now. =D Anyway, short update here. Republic Polytechnic will be holding an education seminar at Centrepoint Hotel, Gadong on 8th of February, Sunday, 2.30 to 5.30pm. For those who are interested, you're most welcome of course. and I'll be there too! So, see you there! =D In addition, we will be having school talks at different schools too. Below is the summarized schedule: 8th Feb 2009, Sunday, 2.30 - 5.30pm - Education Seminar at Centrepoint Hotel, Gadong. 9th Feb 2009, Monday, 8.30 - 9.30am - School talk at Chung Hua Secondary School, K.Belait. 10.00 - 11.00am- School talk at Chung Ching Secondary School, Seria. 11.30 - 12.30pm - School talk at St.Margaret's School, Seria. 10th Feb 2009, Tuesday, 8.30 - 9.30am - School talk at Chung Hwa Middle School, Bandar. 10.00 - 11.00am - School talk at SOAS College, Bandar. 11.30 - 12.30pm - School talk at Pengiran Anak Puteri Hajah Masnah Secondary School, Lambak. Yeap yeap, that's all. Any questions or problems, feel free to contact me at msn, or just tag beside there. =D HOPE TO SEE U THERE!

PON PON PON!

Skipping class is DAMN addictive! and contagious too! Once you skipped once, you will feel like skipping the next day again. =| Person A: Ehh.. I feel like 'pon' eh today.. ( is a short form of 'ponteng', which is commonly used by ppl in singapore. means skipping class) shouting out in the class, while slacking.. Person B: Yea lo yea lo.. me too!! sigh~ no mood to stay le.. Person C: Me three me three! ba, let's go! packed bag and leave.. Gosh, it's really ADDICTIVE, CONTAGIOUS and I mean it! haha. and I'm one of them too actually. lalala~ I've been skipping class these few days. I got no mood already, seriously. Brain totally shut down and don't even feel like brainstorming. Sorry to those who are in my team. -____- As time goes by, I can't be bothered with my daily grades as well. CHAM! which means that, my GPA gonna drop! =( sigh~ no choice, have to 'qiong' in year 2 already, in order to pull up my GPA. sigh~ jia you ba! feel so guilty... =( It's Thursday today and I haven't pack my bag yet. still early, no? And I haven't buy any food back home as well. Gotta speed up everything so that no last-minute work and rush! well, only know how to say, I don't think I'll change this habit for I'm a procrastinator! Oh ya, I had a video interviewing session today, which will be shown in RP education seminar in overseas. It was okay though, except for the NGs part. =) For your information, RP will be going to Brunei to have seminars about further studies in Republic Polytechnic on 1st of February. For those Brunei people who are interested, feel free to contact me and I'll give you more details about it. =D that's all.

mentally disordered

I'm emotionally affected at the moment. I think I'm suffering from paranoiac, seriously. Have been thinking a lot of stuffs recently and I can't stop my mind! Urgh! sometimes I feel like digging a hole and bury myself in it forever, heck care everything. I wonder if I'll suffer from split personality in future or not. =\ How I wish I have the power to control everything and everything will be under my hand, yes, my hand! I can do whatever I like, go wherever I want and not being controlled by certain things. Sigh~ think my white hairs will grow very soon.. >=(

I hate myself..

Alright, change topic! Yesterday I bladed first time in my whole life! haha~ sound so 'sakai' but it was quite fun. However, I always suffer from the-feeling-of-falling whenever I try to move. -____- I almost fall a lot of times of luckily was grabbed by dom. -__-''' damn embarrassing when people passed by. It's not that easy as I thought when I saw people blading. Even bicycle is more easier than blading la! below is the video that I uploaded in facebook. Take a look and laugh as much as u want. =p I looked clumsy and stupid. I love roller blading, only when I can blade as fast as I can, i can feel the wind in the air. =) but, i sweated a lot that day. =\ ps: You have to tilt your head to the left in order to watch the video. =) sorry for the inconvenient caused. =p

speechless

One more week and I'll be back! Nevertheless, I don't know whether I should be happy or sad. =\ confused.

Anyway, nothing much to blog about. Just uploaded some photos that we took in the class during break time. =)

US~

WanQing, Amanda, Me & Sin Yee. They are good teammates to work with, and of cuz nice friends too! How I wish we'll still be in the same class in Year 2. Oh yea, talking about Year 2, I'm gonna be a Second year student soon on April, when school reopens. GOSH! I've been studying in RP for almost a year subconsciously. O.O ALright, back to the topic.. We were bored in the class, therefore we took A LOT of photos continuously, as if it runs like a video. Uploaded some of them here. =)

playing with Amanda's webcam..

Can see any similarity down here?

hint: Straight line. Yeap yeap, FRINGE! Three of us have the same bangs! thick and straight. HAHA! Here we go, playing with the webcam again.. Bursted out loud ! =D too bad, semester 2 is ending soon. =( Alright, shall stop the craps now. Signing off..

my thoughts

2 more weeks and I'll be back to Brunei! 3 more weeks and it's gonna be Chinese New Year! Gosh, time doesn't fly, it teleports I tell you!! "Is our pace too slow, or time just can't wait to be reincarnated?" HAHA! anyway, I have no mood to study right now. totally in a SLACKY situation! still in a holiday mood, even though I had nothing much to do during holidays. guess what? I'm blogging in class! XD. I realized that my recent posts are mostly personal one nowadays, and wordy too, which i do not really wish it to be, cuz scare that some of the readers might not like it. Anyway, should appreciate that cuz I only blog when i got inspiration and time (as it's hard for me to have these two things with me sometimes) and also, when i feel like to. XD. *slap me!* Oh yea, remember that I mentioned before about my stay in Brunei from 19th Jan to 1st April? I'm thinking of coming back earlier than that. maybe mid of March? =D Reason: Due to RP's International Student Club's Assimiliation Program(AP) 2009, I'm one of the helpers of AP, therefore, I need to be back early as there will be meetings and arrangements that I have to attend in March. -------- Think if I change the date of the flight, i need to pay extra $. FYI, the flight that i take is Airasia. Does anyone know how much I should pay for it? and is it very troublesome? For those who know it, can msn me or tag me. I need info. =) thanks. Haven't tell my mom yet, and I wonder what will she think. hmmm.. For sure she will tease me with this : "wa, want to go back so early.. don't miss home already la, don't want us already la.. don't want Brunei le la~" then followed by my bro, nodding his head up and down behind." RAWR! It's not like that de lo.. I have reason neh~ Of cuz I do miss everyone overthere! =D alright, shall stop here. Else, it's gonna be an essay writing. will update u guys soon. =) ta ta~

mummy-ing

Third day of the very new year and my very first post of the year! How did you guys celebrate your new year? fireworks? BBQ? clubbing? party? countdown? sure you guys enjoyed a lot huh. Me? nah~ I did nothing but reading my book in welcoming the new year. Perhaps, it is the first time that I didn't celebrate with my family, and my first time for not counting down at this such day. Usually, it's my tradition to countdown every single important day like Christmas, new year, birthday, Chinese new year and so on. And that is why, i felt awkward, very, by just letting my christmas and new year eve 'tick tock tick tock' at 12am just like that! To me, I used to think it's quite important to wait and stare at the clock for 12am's arrival and squeal out "HAPPY NEW YEAR!", "MERRY CHRISTMAS!", "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!", "HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!" to everyone! But now, I came to learn that, it's just a normal day, another day of your ordinary life only. Especially when your life changes over time, you tend to focus and move your priority to other even more important things, instead of sticking back to the useless and worthless things. 'won't die la even if no celebrations and countdown! doesn't mean that people celebrate, you too have to celebrate rite?' convinced myself with this when feel disappointed. Yes, there are certain things in your life that you don't need to bother about it, or even pay too much attention to it. And, you don't have to follow the majority too. For instance, whatever most of the people like it, owned it, follow it, you don't have to follow too; just be yourself and do what you can do and capable of, that's all. and Do not influenced by bad people! I repeat, do not influenced by bad people. The most important thing is that, stand strong with your own position and make sure you yourself will not bring problems to yourself, or cause any troubles to other people too. =) oh my~ I soound so mummy and lecturer, talking about all these appreciations and life thingy. This is because, I super duper and DAMN f*cking (please mind my language k, this means that my patience has reached beyond its limit already) hate people who DO NOT appreciate their life and what they are having right now, especially when their parents are trying their best to support them. The worst is, they help their parents by destroying and worsen their own lifes. wat the heck?! Super rebellious and inconsiderate! *can't you just stand strong at your own position and don't be influenced by those freaking no-class, useless and uneducated people?* gosh~ freaking no brain to think about the consequences before doing anything else. *gulped in full mouth of water to calm myself down* What is so good about putting yourself on top of the eggshells? there is safe and prepared way for you to go, but you chose to be like this. sigh~ Anyway, I shall stop nagging about this in case my blood pressure rises. HAHA. For those who are reading this, and happen to fall under this "rebellious and inconsiderate" human category, please lock yourself in your room and reflect on your own, think what you have done and what you have did good (as in literally good) in your life, and what you should do next. No one can help you unless YOU help yourself first. meaning? advice given but don't take it seriously, might as well don't give you. People are trying to help, but if you refuse to take it, it's pointless too. That's why you have to change your mindset and accept. Or else, everything will be back to zero again. Okay, fullstop. End of this. =D *a big smile showed on face from ear to ear* what a lecture-y post to be the first post of 2009. -___-

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update: Yeap yeap, I just bought 3-in-1 Dave Pezler's book today and i'm reading the second part now. Actually, reading isn't that bad though, as i used to think that reading is boring and waste of time. But this time, I proved myself wrong. haha. and I think i'm addicted to it already! =D Anyway, it's good in a sense that i can improve my english by reading too. See, one bird kills two stones.. EH! i mean one stone kills two birds! HAHAHA!