Just dance!

Life has been very dramatic and full of ups and downs recently. Despite all the tight schedules, complaints and being worn out everyday, I kinda love and enjoy my busy life right now. :D Anyway who cares,

JUST DANCE ! :D

FINALLY !!!

Yes, Like finally I've got wee bit of time to blog about my recent life! OXYGEN!!! :D Sorry for MIA for quite a long time and yes, my blog is so dead. -.- Only those advertisements entertained me (thank you) LOL! Reflections is finally over, First UTs are over as well, and now I have to focus on ISF. Oh not to forget Monday's PP Presentation! and and, DRAWINGS as well! =|

11th Nov Wednesday night, Muse II 20th Nov Friday night, Reflections closing bash + flame awards + afterparty! :D Enjoy hell lots yesterday night! :D

More photos of this, click here ! :D

Next, just wanna say that, I've got the academic awards 2009 for being in the top 10% of students for good academic performance in the Diploma (*self pat) :D Alright, that's all. and please TAGGGGG to keep this blog alive! regardless you're a passerby, strangers, friends, family and whosoever. :D compliments and critiques are acceptable! Thank you very much!

Volatile

POOF! Here I am again. Yes, I'm occupied and suffocated! BUSY BUSY BUSY! UT, PP, DRAWINGS, ISF, MODERN DANCE, DANCE AND DANCE AGAIN! Guess I'm really digging my own grave, how I wish someone could bury me up right now! Have a sudden urge to stop doing what I'm doing right now. Can I? But I think I'll get killed by people. =S Call me a wuss call me slow but that's your own perception only. I'm doing at my own pace and hate people rushing and interrupting unless I ask for help. If you're really an eager beaver then too bad for you because I'm not one of them. I have a life my dear. :) Time is definitely not enough for me to do everything but I have no choice right now. Seriously, one after another. PACKED PACKED PACKED! effing hectic! Okay, I think I should be more considerate and cooperative so as not to slow down everyone's progress, right? Oh well. what to do? BUCK UP, SUSAN! You're half way there already, prove it to them! :D

Overwhelmed

Hellooo people! Yes, haven't been blogging for almost a month and yes, I'm still alive, obviously. Have been very busy since school started. So much things to do and yet so little time! Just like what others always say:' Why do everything have to come at the same time?' Sometimes in life, we complain and still we have no choice, end up giving in and swallow all of them. At least my PP has been approved and one burden downed. Now I've got to choreo a Chinese Dance and teach but I have not much time. How great is that. My brain is so dry that I can't think of anything right now. Converting and editing songs, obstacles, schedules and yada yada. R U B B I S H. How I wish my brain is superb and poof, here goes the things that I want. Oh, at the same time, I need to accomplish more than 5 drawings of different hotel rooms within a short period of time too. It would be terrific if I have a clone right now. HAHA! I wish. I'm pretty sure that my brain is going to condemn real soon! Ah, I haven't talk about my school life yet, have I? So, new class new classmates. They are pretty okay. Nothing much but the modules for this semester are kinda brain damaging I supposed. Sad to say but I have to admit that this time round, my classmates are not as smart as my previous class. Unlike this semester's classmates, my previous classmates are so smart and efficient that I almost do not need to do anything in class because they always finish everything during the first part of the lesson before me. However for this time round, I really need to use my brain and initiate everything during the lesson. How tiring is that. Oh my eyelids literally weigh 20kg in class everyday! Guess I really shall 'enjoy' all these, rather than avoiding and keep complaining right. Be optimisitic, cuz no pain no gain! :D

Sometimes, I really wish to have Hazel's life, seriously.

Birthday Eve

It's sweet that relatives and family celebrated with me. Not really a celebration though just cutting a cake and that's it. Nothing much special. As usual, dinner with six to eight dishes at aunt's. Being an organizer could be suckish at times too because you're the one who always arrange and initiate everything, obviously. Well i'm the one who always arranges and brings out cakes and plates whenever there's cake cutting ceremony. I totally don't mind abt that at all. I enjoy decorating the candles and so. But the suck part is that, it happens even when it's my birthday as well! Hello. No one automatically do it for me and in addition everyone's like rushing me to bring out the cake and do the preparation. Not to mention the name, i was even asked to cut a piece of cake out first because my lil cousin is hungry and i haven't even light up the candles yet! But i didn't. HA ! Great. That's one of the reasons of why i do not want to celebrate my birthday in the very beginning. I'd rather not to have it at all if i know this would happen. Oh well, call me a grumpy person or whatever. That's me. Apart from that, i really appreciate mom's effort in buying a costly cake and do all the cleanup for me. Thanks mom. Nothing can beats mummy, right? :) Shall rant no more else i'll be as good as those naggy people. Bla. Happy 19th, Sue. And i mean HAPPY. :-)

HOME

Nothing changes and almost everything remains the same. Guess I'm the one who's not used to it. Be it the people here, environment and so on. I adapt real fast huh. I feel different in two different places. Everything is okay so far except for the internet (you know), and guess where am I now? Coffee Bean. LOL! Was kinda busy renewing passport and re-entry permit these few days and they are done! Went to Limbang day ago and I wonder how the residents there could actually survive in that kind of environment. Everything is so backdated and they call that tall building their shopping centre? I'm so thankful that I at least grown up in Brunei. Not to be sarcastic or proud but I believe most of you would agree with me on this. The weather is so hot that I feel like a roasted duck whenever I'm outside. I perspire everytime I'm done with bathing too. Air-cond is my best friend now! My pace is very slow right now. I feel relax and stress-free when I try not to think of anything. However, when I think about of going back to Sg, responsibilities and tasks bombarded and they stressed me out! Cuz I'm still in square 1. So far nothing much have been done since it's only the first few days in Brunei and I think I'm gonna be dead meat when I go back to SG. Oh there will be 3 days dance camp on 28th where I'll only be touching down in Sg on the 27th! Not to forget, i'm missing 3 dance lessons during the vacation as well. Well done Susan. Apart from that, i have no idea on the other event(dance) that I'm doing right now. Totally clueless empty and somehow I feel like dropping it. For that I'll be killed as well. Someone please save me!

<3

Am going back to Brunei tomorrow. :) Hopefully this trip will be fun and full of colours, though it's short for 2 weeks only. I think I'm having mixed feelings right now. I'm excited and at the same time, feeling sad too. Guess I'm emotional nowadays and not used to it so far. Having to fly off tomorrow thought he would be able to send me off, but never knew that he went to Phillipines 2 days before me. End up I was the one who sent him off at the airport. I couldn't help but tear glands were very active at that point of time. I burst out in front of people and they told me not to be sad and cry. Guess what? That made me, and the situation even worst. I am always told by everyone that I'm a strong, mature and independent person. Well to me it's up to a certain extent depending on situations. Apparently, I'm weak inside, really am. For this especially. Guess that is why at times I tend to hide my weakness with those personality for defense purpose. Well, asked to look at the brighter side, perhaps we could make use of this chance to give us a break and will be fresh once we meet up again. :) For this I'm motivated. And I'm pretty sure that what we've gone through so far are worth doing. *Took a deep breathe*

Hazel Lee. Begging me for 'Ba Gua' with that innocent eyes. How adorable.

Stared at me for not giving her the food. Can you read her face expression? Su-parr cute! Now this little Lee makes me miss that Mr Lee frigging much!

Made this so called scrapbook with at least 50 pages for him during CNY 2009. Time does fly like a jet isn't?

Anticipating...

All I need is determination + confidence + luck!

During the exams period, I had so much to say but I couldn't due to exams and busy days, so I promised myself to blog after exams. Now that my exams are over, and I forgot what I wanted to say already. This happens all the time I swear. Well, I joined back modern dance again! =D Lessons are as usual, every Monday and Thursday. Bruises and floor burns became a part of me ever since I joined back. Seriously, my techniques suck now, deteriorated and my flexibility sucks too! There are a lot of things to catch up again and I nearly forget all the ballet french terms as well. I had serious muscles ache from top to bottom of my body and totally couldn't move after the first day of lesson. I feel like a retired old woman who's trying to dance again. Although it's stressful but I somehow enjoy it. Guess I really need to work hard now. =D Determination and confidence, come to mama please ! Second highlight of the post: Finished exams already and this means that it's the end of the 2nd Year first semester! Time flies damn fast boy. Oh, I'm having holiday now! =DD Sounds good huh, BUT! I don't think I did well in my exams. They seem easy but when you really do it, you got stucked and feel like your information are all over the place and the worst thing is, you can't remember where you'd put your information in your brain! That annoys me a lot. =\ Oh well, all I need for this is LUCK now! I want As and high GPA! Well, more stresses are coming up. Holidays mean have to start doing PP which I have no idea how to start right now. =S The deadline is on October! Besides that, I have to choreo a Chinese dance for an upcoming event on December too; have to think about the costumes, how to get and where to get, practice time and dancers as well. And, modern dance too. =\ Busy! Sigh. Everything always happen at the same time. LOL! --------------- I seriously hate doing air tickets thing. It's freaking troublesome! Okay, that's one of the disadvantages of studying in overseas. Flying back and forth during vacations and CNY, thinking which flight and date to take and fly, how to book or buy and so, everything has to be planned properly. Else, you will be facing a lot problems like fully booked or way too expensive. This makes me stressed too! Well, i've bought this September's ticket back to Brunei, so it's not for me to worry about this right now (except for the going back alone part =S). Now the thing is, I need to book my CNY flight back to Brunei in 2010 already! Can you imagine what is the date today? Still have half a year to CNY 2010 and yet most of the flights are kinda fully booked, or very expensive. Well, I'm not the only kiasu one right now huh. =p Okay, I shall rant no more! It's never enough for me to complain everything. I should learn HOW to appreciate and take it easy instead. =)

OH OH! LOOK AT THE DATE TODAY! IT'S 27th AUGUST! LOL! Okay, happy one year anniversary to me! =D wee~

Had steamboat at Dom's and the family as well. BLOATED!

Done by his dad. freaking hilarious! LOL! Guess what are those ingredients? Syabu Syabu(beef) as the hair, panda fish as the face, fishball filled with meat as the body and Enoki mushroom as arms and legs! "Happy anniversary!" That's what the dad said. =D

Life still goes on, so be optimistic people!

DUH ~

Life is a paradox, regardless anything. Human beings know what is right and what is wrong and they know they should be good. They tell others to do right things and be good to others, and yet they can contradict themselves by doing oppositely. Funny huh? There are different kind of people exist in this world; kind, helpful, arrogant, fake, weird, cunning, bitchy, busybody, useless, and yada yada yada. Sometimes they disgusted me, a lot. BUT, who am I to judge them right? I have no rights at all, agree? Well, WE have no rights to judge people at all, unless you're asked to be a judge of something else. That's different case then. Sometimes, I find it very annoying when people keep pointing here and there and say: "EEee.. look at that person's face, damn ugly eh! Seriously BUANG!" "Oh my gosh, look at that girl/guy's attire! seriously got no sense of fashion man!" "Eww, why is that person's face so weird? Like kena banged by car." "Look at that couple, not match at all ler~" Hello people ~ Before you talk about them, look at yourself first. Are you perfect enough to say others? People never hire you as a judge or what, so many comments for what? DUH ~ as if you have nothing else to do. And, I really hate those busybody people, keep harping and irritates on the same freaking thing forever and ever, as if you all haven't grown up yet. It goes like this : "Eee, you like that girl/guy ah? Eh seh, I don't wanna be a light bulb la, go go go, walk beside him/her then! don't forget to hold hand ah!" "OMG! I saw him and her walking together just now man! They've got something on for sure! Wanna bet or not?" Then run like an idiot and spread around to their friends, as if they will gain credits from it. Come on la, it's so primary and secondary school thing that we used to do it eh, how old are you now? Still wanna bring the habit to poly or uni life? Other than being an entertainment for you all, I find it rather backstabbing your friends. Be it me myself or my friends, i defend both. I just cannot tolerate this kind of shit. Tsk. Screw your mouth off man, perhaps, your backside. =p One sentence, you are damn lifeless, poor you. =) GROW UP, PEOPLE! They keep quiet doesn't mean they are okay with it and no comments at all. Mind you. Don't wait till people backfire you, we will then have fun as well. What goes around comes around~ Use your freaking brain and put yourself in others' shoes. If you have nothing to do or talk about, just shut your hyperactive mouth, keep quiet and mind your own shit, alright? You're not treated as a mute. =) And please don't talk cock when your balls are not that big. No one will look down on you even though you're not or what. Just be real and be yourself. Faking your identity doesn't do any good to you, and to us as well. In fact, you will get opposite results though. We know what's behind you, so please. The more you boast, the more I'll dig out the truth and embarrass you till you're faceless! 0=) I can be very mean at times, erm, i think most of the time. LOL! So don't try me. Thank you. ps: If you think above mentioned are somewhat similar to your behaviours, please change then. Will be greatly appreciated. :) I don't mind helping you to change yourself as well too. Feel free to contact me if you need to. HAHA ! >=)

HELLO WORLD! =) It has been a long time that I blogged. How are you people? Life's as usual huh, ups and downs. I think people now are more into the HAZE thing. Every time I log into facebook, sure got a lot of people complaining the weather's hot and hazy. Yes, I'm talking about you, Brunei. Poor you all. For a moment I was glad that I wasn't in Brunei, because I cannot stand hazy and super hot weather. It irritates my nose hell lots. However, Singapore is a bit hazy nowadays as well, guess it's some Indonesia thing going on. And I think some parts of Malaysia are suffering from haze too. Oh well ~ There are a lot of things going on in my mind and sometimes they are really driving me crazy! I'm just too indecisive towards everything. Now I suspect that I'm having split personality. O.O Sometimes I don't think what I usually think, and sometimes I do what I usually don't think or do. Fickle brain, paranoid, complicated and whatsoever la. Okay, I suck at describing and I don't know what I'm talking about now. I'll leave it till next time where I can actually write it in words properly. I was sick last week; mild fever, sore throat and flu. My normal body temperature is usually from 35.4 - 36.2. However during that period, it rose up to 36.9 - 37.4 day after day. To me, it's consider hot already and I thought 37 degree celcius is normal for a body temperature. I'm cold-blooded. LOL. Guess what? I didn't visit doctor at all! Self-recovery. No medicines were taken as well. I think my stubborn-head can kill me sometimes, if it really happens to be H1N1. =S Sometimes, I really don't know what is good for me and what is best for others. Being considerate can actually hinders you in making decision too. I hate myself for being so considerate. It makes me paranoid and indecisive. For instance, given A and B, you're thinking of doing A which will benefits you. But then if you choose A, it will affects another person and you start to feel guilty; And if you choose B, it doesn't do any good to you but it benefits another person and you start to feel regret. Therefore, you will then start to think whether which one to choose, to benefit yourself or others? I seriously cannot make up my mind in this kind of situation and I feel so useless. Exams are coming in one week time and after that holidays! Wait, I haven't revise any of the modules yet. I feel so unproductive. I think I've jeopardized my priorities already. It's like, you're trying to study, but then there is actually other stuff that you wanted and can't wait to do first other than studying. Agree? Three words : Humans are VERY complicated ! I know, I know no one else can help me other than myself. Whatever decisions that I'm going to make, thus I have to bear whatever consequences that are going to happen as well. Oh well, hopefully life will continue go on smoothly lor ~ Obstacles shooo shoooo !

relieved!

Finally! Have been wanting to blog but was kinda busy with studies. I think I only did well in one UT among 4 and the rest confirm screwed up already. sigh~ Guess I have to buck up for the 3rd UT again. Stress!

Above is the daily grade and 1st UT grades. It is very hard for me to achieve As for my daily grade nowadays. That's why I print-screen this to make me feel better whenever I look at it. Usually I'm fated with B! B! B! B! B! Sigh, where are my As? losing touch with it already. Anyway, I'm kinda satisfied with my UT grades though. Except for one, B+. Because I could actually get A just by one mark only! ONE MARK! damn pek cek! 1 mark, or even 0.5 does make a big difference I tell you. Giving myself high expectations so that I can aim high for my GPA, not kiasu k; treated it as a challenge.

------------------ These are what I've been doing recently.. - Do exercise and jog regularly, at least 2-3 times a week. - Eat fruits and drink fruit juices. - Eat vitamins everyday. - Control myself from eating extra; proper meals and no supper! - Study for tests. - and so on and so forth! I'm proud of myself! HAHA! Hope this will last! As people said that I'm getting fatter now, that's why I'm on diet + fitness plan so that i can lose some weight and fats! It's obvious that my face is getting chubbier now than before. so yea. =|

I had my first ever manicure (as in not by myself) last Thursday and I loved it! However, the blink blinks are starting to go off already. =( Now my nails look cacat. -.- END! LOL.

Early birds != fresh worms?

I didn't know that there are AIR ASIA flights from Singapore to Miri until my bro told me today! I've booked a return flight via RBA last month from 11th September to 27th September, Singapore - Brunei and it costs me SGD320, whereas Airasia more or less SGD 150++. LOL. Am I too early or what? This proves that being an early bird doesn't mean you will get fresh worms as well! See, mummy, that is what will happen when you got paranoid and become 'gan jiong spider'! Too kiasu liao. HAHA! Oh well, what to do? booked and paid already. Nvm, I'm still happy that I've got a direct flight from Sg to Brunei, because I don't have to wait and travel for additional 2 hours back to Brunei again! =p wee~

Revived.

BOO! I know, I know. DEAD right? LOL. Was kinda lazy to blog recently; no mood, no inspiration, tests attacked, busy and yada yada. There are actually a lot to blog about, but I don't know how to consolidate, arrange and put them into words. Guess my vocabularies and expression sucks. Now now, will just let the photos do the talking then.

28th June, filming:

the male lead. the couple, aka the director and the assistant. Raffles Place. LOL. what a face. April, ex housemate and I. begger! looked pro. one word, silly! 10th July, STEAM BOAT @ School! this cost us $6 per set only. Damn cheap! :) 7th July, photography lesson: Below are the photos that I personally took and like very much. :) Welcome to RP. U and I. one of the buildings.. sports complex I love this. Natural and cheerful. ;) pebbles! .red. white.

Well, I had to say that RP is a good place to take photos though. The architecture, the nature and everything they have there. By the way, I was using Canon 350D to shoot. Not bad right my skills? LOL! thick skin. Anyway, I love photography, just that I don't have such a good equipment to play with. Overall, it was fun! I'm so gonna buy a DSLR when I can afford one next time. BUT, NEED is more important than WANT, so this will take a looong time to be mine again. haha. Guess I'll stop here to let this post as a picture post, so that it won't be that wordy. Any more, that will be the next post!

a CHEEENA face for all of you.

ta ta people!